But seriously. Christmas is great, save my dad's side of the family being all weird and judgemental (except Borch, Tom, Kathy, Abberz and my Grandma they're all pretty damned rude at times) . We're going to my aunt's on my mom's side's house in like half an hour, so this'll be sort of short. Nothing much is new, I have 230$ now yay and I can buy pants . I got the new Crow calendar *drools* so that's cool..a bunch of other stuff, this really cute doll in this line caleld "Bleeding Edge Goths". I'll probably get a pic of it up on my webshots site sometime soon. Finally *someone* read 'World of Sin' (might be my best, next to like two other ones). The only thing I'm missing now is some spray cheese, a spork and jerky. I haven't talked to Amanda in like a week, maybe she hates me lol. Holy shit, I forgot about last night. Ryan was on and he was being really weird and deep, supposedly he 'found god' after some crazy drug trip. He was all like "There's a god, Nikki". And I was just like "duh." Ryan's been a hardcore athiest for who knows how long, and I've always believed in some kind of god so we kind of dissagread on that aspect until like last night. Then Ryan had to go, he was like "I have to go now, I hope to be back soon." so I was like "Ok, I'll miss you. Regaurdless of how short or long you're gone, I always miss you, Ry." Then there was this long pause, then he puts "I love you, Nikki." I was like whoa. I almost shit myself, lol. I mean , we're talking about *RYAN* here. I've been obsessed with Ry for like two years now almost. So I was like "I love you so much, Ry. So much it hurts." and then he signed off so I was stuck there crying like a dumbass over Ry o.0. So then I did the dumbest thing ever and wrote him this unbelievably sappy letter *gag*. He hasn't replied yet, but I hope to god he doesn't hate me now. I guess that's about it, I'm gonna go drive around in that stupid jeep on Tomb Raider, lol...if anyone knows how to get out of that stupid thing, TELL ME.
~Peace